Ordinary bores me. It is a dull hum in a busy world. What I would do to not have an ordinary life! If you want to change you have to do something about it. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result. Most of us meet this definition. We cry and complain about not having this awesome life but we don’t do anything to change our situation. Our heart wants these desires to come true but if we don’t make a logical path to those desires and follow through with action all we are doing is dreaming about one life, and living another. Unless you have tried and keep trying you have no right to complain. Why should anyone feel sorry for anyone not living how they want to live without putting any effort at all? We shouldn’t. If you want something, work for it, and depending on what it is you may have to put a ridiculous amount of effort into it, or it may be something that can come easily to you. Everything has a cost to it whether it is time, money, friends, family or whatever and if you are not willing to pay then you need to deal with it. Life isn’t easy, and it isn’t meant to be. The most fulfillment you can get from something usually comes from the things you struggled with the most but overcame. We are not entitled to anything we did not work for. Okay, rant over.
Today I don’t feel like doing squat! I just want to sit back and relax. I wouldn’t mind a long drive down a coastal highway or a nice quiet retreat into the woods. I’ll bring my fishing poles while I’m at it and who cares if a catch anything or not because I wouldn’t be at work today. I’d rather be sitting with my wife, holding her just doing nothing at all than being at this place of forced productivity. Building blocks with my almost two-year-old or playing cars would satisfy my desire to be doing anything but work. Why is is that we work to live? I wish I could be in a situation where I live to work, and live to play, and live just to live. I dream of being able to wake up with my wife every day just to spend the majority of the day with her and my child. I desire to not have to feel the need to have to work the majority of my time awake. Days like today are the days I dream the most of doing Squat!
I am aware of how fast my child is growing up. I cannot grasp the time spent fast enough. Everyone always says “Enjoy it while it lasts, because before long they will be grown up.” There are times when we take for granted the time we get here on earth, and the time that we are able to spend with our loved ones and children. Some of us don’t realize what we missed until it’s gone. I know I have, and sadly I have a feeling it will happen again, and again. I do come across moments where I just know that I need to cherish it. I clear my mind of whatever I was thinking about and I just give to the moment, soaking up all it has to offer. My child snuggling up next to me while watching cartoons or just a few moments of silent embrace with my wife, I try to hold on to that moment, that feeling as long as I can, and sometimes I’m painfully aware that it may never happen again in this uncertain life. It makes me want to re-engage into that moment. I find that when I am aware that I’m stuck in a job that I don’t want to be at because I want to be spending my time with my family that I would give almost anything to be able to use all my time with them. Out of all the currencies in the world, time is the most valuable, and yet we tend to live life like we are time billionaires where in reality we are just above the poverty line. I know this couple that has this motto, “Do what you love and love what you do.” and I find profound beauty in that statement for the sole fact of the famous saying “If you are doing what you love to do you will not have worked a day in your life.” Living this, I feel will cause you to be able to make wise “purchases” with your time.