Doubt

My number one battle is against Doubt. It is a fight against what I want to achieve versus what I think I can achieve. I have never really had much confidence in myself and I always underestimate myself and the things I create. I feel like most things I make are only so-so and not spectacular. One thing I can tell you is that I have amazing people around me that show me different. They boost me up and make me see that the work I do is actually better than so-so. It still may not be the best but it isn’t as bad as I think it is. Right now I’m a journey of self-discovery. I am trying to find what I would love to do for the rest of my life, what career I will have and how we will raise our daughter. I really want to break free from a 9 to 5 job and be able to be my own boss, work my own schedule and not just work a system like Uber where the payout isn’t all that great. I’m talking about having a successful blog, maybe write a book or two, or something else online. Maybe I could just bee a freelance writer. At this point, I’m not sure, but I know that I want to be able to have more family time. I also want to be able to help my wife reach her dream of having a nice self-sustaining homestead complete with farm animals and garden, especially with Bessie the cow providing us some fresh milk! Doubt gets in the way of all of this because we are comfortable with taking to risk. We grow complacent in where we are and when we have an idea we tend to quickly shut it down because it doesn’t fit into our current lifestyle. If we are going to reach our dreams, reach our goals, we need to ditch doubt and believe that we are capable of doing a lot more than what we give ourselves credit for.

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Awareness of Time

I am aware of how fast my child is growing up. I cannot grasp the time spent fast enough. Everyone always says “Enjoy it while it lasts, because before long they will be grown up.” There are times when we take for granted the time we get here on earth, and the time that we are able to spend with our loved ones and children. Some of us don’t realize what we missed until it’s gone. I know I have, and sadly I have a feeling it will happen again, and again. I do come across moments where I just know that I need to cherish it. I clear my mind of whatever I was thinking about and I just give to the moment, soaking up all it has to offer. My child snuggling up next to me while watching cartoons or just a few moments of silent embrace with my wife, I try to hold on to that moment, that feeling as long as I can, and sometimes I’m painfully aware that it may never happen again in this uncertain life. It makes me want to re-engage into that moment. I find that when I am aware that I’m stuck in a job that I don’t want to be at because I want to be spending my time with my family that I would give almost anything to be able to use all my time with them. Out of all the currencies in the world, time is the most valuable, and yet we tend to live life like we are time billionaires where in reality we are just above the poverty line. I know this couple that has this motto, “Do what you love and love what you do.” and I find profound beauty in that statement for the sole fact of the famous saying “If you are doing what you love to do you will not have worked a day in your life.” Living this, I feel will cause you to be able to make wise “purchases” with your time.

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Aware